I feel like I help people way too much to the point where it feels like I’ve been taken advantage of.
I know it’s selfish to ask for something in return, but sometimes it just you know feels better knowing that someone can also help you when you need help.
Another situation, I give advice to people all the time about what they should do with their relationships and things like that, but when I have a problem and I start talking about it they somehow manage to turn it around and steer it in their favor. So I end up helping them solve another problem while mine is like hanging in purgatory.
And then there’s the issue about competition. I have never pegged myself as competition, but apparently I am to some people I know. I offer someone I know some help to study for physiology class and in turn they not only get my knowledge and all my old work (because that’s what friends do I suppose), but when I’m struggling with another subject, they just shut me out. Thanks guys.
the saltwater room—owl city
And these are the days music is the only thing that makes feel better.
I usually never really make my blogs personal, because I’ve known to rant in a really bad way and then other bloggers come around and bitch at me about why I bitch about things, so I try to limit personal blogs.
update: the reason behind this limiting personal blogs
I had the unfortunate incident when I used to blog on blogger.com back in the day, when I really took Paramour as a portfolio rather than a blog. So what happened was I blogged about this girl in my science lab who kept complaining about how she was doing bad in school. Well, I asked her how she was doing and how her grades were and she told me she had a 4.0 GPA. Well please remind me if I am wrong, but I think the last time I heard a 4.0 (that’s like getting all A’s/high marks, etc) was like the BEST thing ever. And the way she said it made me feel kind of angry because at that time I wasn’t doing very well in school, and hearing someone complain about having good grades is sort of a pet peeve. Long story short, I posted it on my blog and I got severely attacked by this random person. He called me selfish, and childish for complaining about it and all other crap stuff that I really didn’t bother to remember. And I realized whatever I post online is in fact visible to everyone on the universe. What he said obviously wasn’t nice at all, and that kind of made me mad again! The guy didn’t know my situation and he chose to just assume that I was being angry through other reasons, that’s what angered me. So to avoid unnecessary confrontation, I try not to write rants or vent too much. Because as much as I know my online friends support me and care for me, there are people who aren’t as nice or forgiving as they are.
But thanks for all your nice comments, though, they all really made my day 
Thanks Bea for making me SOTM!! I’m so honored! 
6 comments.
6 Comments
On Feb 06, 2010 Nicole said:
Uh bitching? You don’t bitch, sweetie, there are some real bitchers out there who can’t keep doing just that (with f-bombs all over the place, like seriously??). I’ve never known a more down-to-earth bitcher.
I totally get what you mean though. It’s really not “human nature” to be sharing and caring and helping, and also maybe you’re helping out the wrong people, ha. >.<
It’s ironic you brought this topic up, because I talked with my closest friend today on the ph for 2 hours & a good deal of the convo was regarding this girl who constantly cheats off of her. I mean, the girl asks to copy her frickin coloring! What the hell, my friend’s getting really pissed off. At the same time, it’s a backhanded compliment because it means people know you’re a hard worker and you do your work really well (so they want in on the goodies). All the same, I’m not one to stand for people leeching off of my work and I’m pretty sly about shaking them off.
Anyway, I’m sorry you have to deal with those selfish crapholes—BUT I’m with you on that music really opens a window. Settling down with a nice book helps, too. ;] Keep your spirits up! ♥
On Feb 07, 2010 Bea said:
I do not think you’re a bitch, I think you are an amazing person. Just like you help others, listen to others and give advice. But know that there are people in this world that are not appreciated. And although you do not care; help grateful. We are here to compete with each other no more, though not like some people. We must not let others trample us. It’s okay to listen to music because it is transmitting peace and harmony. Do not worry about writing blogs about personal things, it is sometimes necessary to express themselves.
Congrats Lucy! You are my site of the month. Click on my name.
On Feb 08, 2010 Gwen said:
What’s wrong with writing personal stuff on your blog? It’s so odd that people would complain to you about that. I mean, it is YOUR blog, you’re allowed to write what you want. I personally like reading personal blogs.
I’m sorry to hear about those people treating you like that. I used to be like you and have gotten a bit more, well, I don’t want to say selfish, but in a way I am. In the end, those people taking advantage of you will back off because there’s nothing for them to get and what’s left are the real people that care about you. Good luck! LOVE! x
On Feb 09, 2010 Bea said:
hey Lucy!
your welcome! It is a pleasure to you to be my SOTM.
Okay. Sometimes you need to talk about this kind of situation. There are people too perfectionist and nonconformists. They always want to be the best in everything. I understand perfectly. That girl is a bitch.
oh your welcome! It’s nothing. haha thank you! I’m glad to talk to you
On Feb 10, 2010 Nicole said:
The goddamn asshole…obviously he was on a major man-period. Ought to have ground up his worthless genitals into a fire.
I’m just telling you now; you ever feel like you need some chica to chica venting, I’m all yours!
On May 03, 2010 Dani said:
I sort of understand where you’re coming from. There are totally people who just aren’t nice online… and it sucks, because I definitely understand the want to just treat a blog like a diary sometimes… bleh. I’m sure that many of your visitors now would be totally understanding of your need to rant, though!
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